It makes me feel great sorrow when you see just amazing and beautiful people feeling self conscious. I understand completely that you can’t change them or expect them to be happy when you want. But it also pisses me off because something has happened in that persons life to make them feel that way. This person is growing up and trying to find themselves and you have the audacity to put this person down when you have failed to see your own flaws. Now look what you did, you have slowly torn this person apart for your own amusement. You should be ashamed of yourself. Shame on you.
We think that we will have that one beat friend forever right? Don’t even bother trying to deny it. We all do, even me. And then we realize, that best friend probably won’t be there forever. I have learned this in the past few years. I have a best friend, she dropped me a few years ago for reason unspoken. But now everything between us is good. And in the time I didn’t have a best friend, someone new came along. That person helped me in my time of need and I helped her through hers. Then on the last day of the eighth grade, she told me she was moving away. She wasn’t moving far away, but it wasn’t a walking distance. We swore to always keep in touch and hang out as much as often. I held my end of the promise, where was this person? Hanging out with new friends and forgetting the person who helped her through her darkest hour. I guess you can say that I am jealous, but I’m not, more like hurt that I was so easily replaced. It hurt like a witch and still does. But I guess I have to move on. On the bright side of it all, I made a new best friend who I know I can trust.
My sister found my blogs on here. I don’t post a lot, but when I do it’s just random things. And she read it all. Lemme go die really quick.
Some days we all struggle to pull ourselves out of bed. I hate those days, because I spend my life wanting to see other people smile real smiles and I can’t help but notice that the people who truly deserve to be happy, aren’t. And it tears me up inside to know that I can only be there for you to make you feel better. I want to take the pain away from you because I feel like you deserve to be happy. I want to burn all the pain away. Just get rid of it all and cut out my happiness and sew it into you. Because that is something I would do. Just for you.
I think high school is not the worst thing in the world. Sure, there are the stupid people, the jocks, the bitchy girls, and the rude teachers. But I think that as long as you have your friends by your side and a mind set on the positives in life you can be happy. That’s just my opinion, I still dislike school, but not as much as I thought I would.